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[angeloffriyay]

"You've reached Anael. Sadly, I'm not able to pick up the phone right now,
but please leave a message and I'll get back to you as soon as I can.
If you want to meet in person, please join me for 'Pray with Sister Jo'.
I'm looking forward to seeing you there." [BEEEEEP]

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[depressant]

I don't think any of us really have a choice, or they wouldn't be such a problem for some people. Malcom went out of his way to get rid of his. But I say take the money and don't think about where it's coming from if it bothers you that much.

Yeah, I'm graceless.

I could, I guess. I don't really care what I end up doing.
No crowds, though.

[angeloffriyay]

Malcolm has done what?

That isn't it. It's just ... the way you move and act is different. At your core you aren't the same.

Preferably something you enjoy.
I don't particularly like crowds either.

[depressant]

He got rid of his camclone somehow. You'd have to ask him about it. I don't even know if it worked.

Whatever helps you sleep at night, Sis.

Well, I enjoy drugs, so Vandor would probably be a good pick.

[angeloffriyay]

I didn't know that was something a person could do.

I don't think this is about me.

Or the worst. Please take care of your body ... or at least let me heal you, once in a while.

[depressant]

Apparently, it is. But I don't remember the details. You'd have to ask him if you wanna know how to do it.

Cas thought I was his camclone the first time we met.

They won't even let us die here. I doubt they'd let me get sick.

[angeloffriyay]

I don't know. It's not like I have a reputation to care about or anything. I mostly forget it's even a thing that exists.

That must have been confusing.

It'd be a way for you to suffer and I think that they are invested in.

[depressant]

I only remember because of the money.

He tried to choke me out. Pretty shocking, but I figured I had it coming. Honestly, I'm surprised he turned around on me so fast— When I first got here, I was sure he hated me.

You really think they want us to suffer? Like, specifically?

[angeloffriyay]

Of course.

He too is a very good person, so of course he would.

Us specifically? No. Everyone they bring here? Definitely.

[depressant]

I don't think it'd make Castiel a bad person if he hated me.

Huh. Really? Interesting.

[angeloffriyay]

I am not saying that. I am just suggesting that his kindness wouldn't allow for a feeling like that to persist.

What is your theory?

[depressant]

Why, because I'm so lovable?

I dunno. I don't really have one. But for my money, they aren't trying to make us suffer. They just don't care. The same as Dad, right?

[angeloffriyay]

Because it is hard to see someone you care about suffer.

And I know you mean it as a jest but you could be lovable. You still are despite trying hard not to be, apparently.

That's also an option. I honestly don't know.

[depressant]

Uh huh.

Who's saying that? Like Hell anybody here loves me.

[angeloffriyay]

You'd think I'd put up with you if I didn't?

[depressant]

Oh, come on. I haven't seen you in person since I got here. You barely know me.

[angeloffriyay]

I didn't even know you were back but that's on me now? Sure.

[depressant]

That's not what I meant. Since the first time I showed up.

[angeloffriyay]

What did I do or say to give you that impression?

[depressant]

What d'you mean? We spoke once, and that was it.

[angeloffriyay]

So, I can't care about you for that reason. Well, if you say that, then it must be true.

[depressant]

I didn't say you can't care about me. I care about you too. But you implied that you love me.

And look, I'm not gonna give you shit for not being interested in my life. God knows I'm not. But how can you love someone you don't know?

[angeloffriyay]

You are my brother, Castiel. Of course, I love you.

But it's good to know that you think I have no interest in you. You too could have reached out again, but I guess it's convenient to forget that.

Both Castiel and I missed you when you disappeared but I guess that too doesn't count. Maybe he knows you, so maybe for him it does count. You would know since I obviously can't.

[depressant]

The way you talked, I figured you didn't want anything to do with me. Sorry.

Of course he knows me. We're the same person.

[angeloffriyay]

Maybe we should agree to leave that behind us. Unless you want to keep bringing it up, which is your prerogative.

I am not going to debate you on that.

[depressant]

I'm just explaining myself.

Good.

Anael, I'm just not the same kind of angel as you are. I don't love my siblings. Not really. I loved them like I loved God, but that's not real. It's like worship, maybe. Or a soldier's brother in arms. Battlefield camaraderie, whatever you wanna call it. Of course I feel loyalty to them— And you. But that's not the same.

If it was, they wouldn't have left me there on Earth to rot.