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[angeloffriyay]

"You've reached Anael. Sadly, I'm not able to pick up the phone right now,
but please leave a message and I'll get back to you as soon as I can.
If you want to meet in person, please join me for 'Pray with Sister Jo'.
I'm looking forward to seeing you there." [BEEEEEP]

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[angeloffriyay]

Hah, I would like to see him try.

I am worried about you.

[nuntius]

I wouldn't. That would be a terrible conflict of interest.

Me? Why?

[angeloffriyay]

He has a tendency to make terrible decisions.

How would me and Dean being contracted make you feel, Castiel?

[nuntius]

...Well. That IS true.

[ He hesitates, waits before he responds. ]

Relieved.

[angeloffriyay]

He will never learn. But it's just as well. [ She is sure it is just one aspect of Dean Winchester that Castiel adores. ]

Why is that?

[nuntius]

He is who he is.

...I'm scared he'll contract with someone else and fall in love.

[angeloffriyay]

And with me you can be certain that will not happen.

[ It's not a question. ]

[nuntius]

No, I can't.

[angeloffriyay]

What do you mean? Do you think I might secretly be his type?

[ She isn't too far off considering what happened with Anna but ... she isn't privy to that kind of information. ]

I can assure you that I am not interested in Dean Winchester. I know your judgment is considerably clouded when it comes to him but ... he is not in fact irresistible from a neutral point of view.

[nuntius]

I don't think it's any secret he thoroughly enjoys redheads.

[ if only she could see him, she'd be surprised by his stunned laughter. ]

I wouldn't call it considerably clouded.

Though he doesn't 'strike out' often.

[angeloffriyay]

Doesn't mean he'd go after just any one of them. Especially not your sister.

And I have never had a conversation with him that I would consider pleasant, so I doubt he'd feel that way about me in particular.

Of course, YOU wouldn't call it that. You are blind when it comes to him. Not that that has to be a bad thing. I ... think it's beautiful even if I don't share or understand your taste.

So what? We sign and then fall madly in love? We don't even have to see each other, Castiel. You do realize that. I don't sleep, I don't need shelter. This would be just a contract, nothing more.

[nuntius]

He went after Anna, though I supposed circumstances were very different.

Well. That's a little harsh. I'm not...entirely blind. But you do have a point. I did...try, here, to pull back. Not be so overbearing. Perhaps loosen some of my feelings and be simply friends.

[ but he's such an obsessive creature, greedy and jealous. Selfish.

They really are similar beings. She wants things, Castiel wants one person to be his. Sexually, it doesn't matter, it's sex and it means little to the angel - and he's aware it's not often it means anything to Dean. He just wants Dean's heart. ]

I know. Sorry, I just..it's complicated.

[angeloffriyay]

He did what? How different can they have been?

That sounds painful. And ... like it didn't work.

Don't be sorry. I am. I don't ... understand what it is that you feel for him. I have never felt connected like that to anyone. I envy you ... how you can look at someone else and just want his happiness.

[ Maybe she longs for that as well, even if she doesn't know what it must feel like. But to give your whole being to someone else, to want to, ... she cannot imagine what that is like and yet wants to understand. ]

I understand that a lot happened between the two of you ... and still will happen. I wished I could help somehow. If this is a way for me to do that, to help just a little, then I want to.

People have told me before that I am a total bitch so. I honestly doubt he'd like me if he knew me. And we don't even have to get to know each other. That can be in the contract, right?

[nuntius]

It was mid-apocalypse and they both thought they were going to die. [ doesn't mean he liked it. ]

It didn't work. And that's all I want for him, even if it doesn't include me. I just want him to have some peace. He deserves that.

It can, if you like. But...it would be nice if you didn't actively dislike one another.

[angeloffriyay]

And that makes it better how? Where were you?

If that is what you want.

I am not planning on disliking him. I just have this thing that whenever I think of him I see him and his brother, standing in a church, asking me to help them fight God. I will get over it.

Admittedly, I want to understand what makes him special. [ not that she truly thinks she could ever understand but. maybe just a little. like a dad who wants to know if his daughter's prom date is worthy of her at all. ]

[nuntius]

I was...not being helpful.

[ The opposite, actually. ]

Sounds like quite an ask. But Dean is...different. We share a very profound bond, and I guess it's something to do with raising him from perdition.

[ He'd had to rebuild Dean's body piece by piece, down to the molecular level, refresh his organs and veins torn by sharp claws, reshape his skeletal structure that had been shattered by hellhounds. ]