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[angeloffriyay]

"You've reached Anael. Sadly, I'm not able to pick up the phone right now,
but please leave a message and I'll get back to you as soon as I can.
If you want to meet in person, please join me for 'Pray with Sister Jo'.
I'm looking forward to seeing you there." [BEEEEEP]

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[angeloffriyay]

'When you are having fun' is how it continues typically, I think? I am not sure that is a notion I would subscribe to in particular.

I am sure it is. Oh, I know her. I think we spoke a few times on the network. They do seem as if they would get along.

Oh. To be included in that statement ... I hadn't expected that. Thank you.

I have missed speaking to you but I didn't think that you needed me around anymore.

[nuntius]

Not always. But I suppose that can be the case. When you’re having fun.

They’re similar people. I’m not surprised they get on so well. She told me to “watch out”, but I know she was joking. I can easily smite her.

I’m not sure why you’d think that. I enjoy your company.

[angeloffriyay]

I am still trying to find things that are fun to me.

Would you smite her if Dean initiated too?

I don't doubt you do but I didn't want to distract you. You have other people who need you to look after them more than I do.

[nuntius]

I like to paint.

[ which still feels weird to say. ]

I’m pretty sure they’ve engaged in intercourse. [ which isn’t something he gives two shits about. Miss Banes is a smart woman, and is far too similar to Dean to want anything more than a solid fuck buddy. ]

You’re hardly a distraction.

[angeloffriyay]

You do? What is it that you paint?

So she meant to imply that she ... what ... could take Dean from you emotionally? I find it hard to believe that anyone may.

What am I then?

[nuntius]

Landscapes. Dean, mostly.

Oh. She was joking. She has no interest in him like that.

My sister that I care about.

[angeloffriyay]

From memory or does he actually model for you?

You didn't answer my questions.

I ... I care about you too, Castiel.

[ The following part is privated ]

The other you worries me.

[nuntius]

Memory. Or while he’s sleeping. I don’t think he could sit still long enough to model.

What question?

I worry about him too. But he is his own man and makes his own choices.

[angeloffriyay]

That was what I thought as well.

Whether you think that anyone would be able to replace you in Dean's heart. Because I don't deem it possible.

He is but ... isn't there anything we can do?

[nuntius]

No. No one can replace me, I know that. I don’t care who he sleeps with, because he will always come home to me.

Let him be himself, and grieve in his own way.

[angeloffriyay]

I am so glad that you have that. I imagine it to be a very nice feeling to experience.

I am trying. I don't feel like I can understand him, nor does he want me to. He keeps playing up how disgusting he is and I don't feel like I can get closer at all.

I know it's not fair of me at all but I keep comparing him to you and ... it's somewhat frustrating. And when I pull away, which I have done last time he was here, he blames me and tells me that I can't possibly love him as my brother because I don't know him.

[nuntius]

It is.

I don't understand what you mean.

[angeloffriyay]

What is it that you don't understand, Castiel?

[nuntius]

Well, I guess I'm just curious as to why you'd compare us; we do have very different life experiences. If I'm being honest, we have equal potential to have been in the others position. He is me, after all.

[angeloffriyay]

I am aware of that. But isn't it natural to do so? If another version of me suddenly appeared here, wouldn't you do the same? At least to try and comprehend and understand them?

I don't feel like I am making progress in that regard.