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[angeloffriyay]

"You've reached Anael. Sadly, I'm not able to pick up the phone right now,
but please leave a message and I'll get back to you as soon as I can.
If you want to meet in person, please join me for 'Pray with Sister Jo'.
I'm looking forward to seeing you there." [BEEEEEP]

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[depressant]

Oh yeah? Who's your partner?

Huh. You think?

But that's all right.

the mushroom tea is a sex swap. I was curious about some things.

[angeloffriyay]

Caleb Widogast. It's still rather new. We were both in a bind, which is how it came about.

I do. It's very unkind of her to judge you like this.

Curious? I thought you had taken a female vessel before. What would you be curious about?

1/2

[depressant]

I talked to him when I was looking for a contract— he seemed nice.

Ah, she doesn't mean anything by it. It's all right.

2/2 - private

[depressant]

I have, yeah. It's just— I never felt great about being stuck in this body. You and Cas still have your powers, but my true form... Well, I can't feel it even if it is there. So I got pretty resentful of this vessel, y'know?

I thought maybe if I could, I dunno, have some control over it, it might help.

And it's not like we have junk. [ in their true forms, he means. ] Pretty sure the city wouldn't let me get away with *that*, but. Maybe I'll be more comfortable that way. I dunno.

private

[angeloffriyay]

Oh? I had never spoken to him before. It somehow worked out. He is really nice from what I can tell.

Obliviousness doesn't protect her from being unkind. Rather on the contrary.

Castiel more so than me, yes ... but ... I do not quite understand how changing that aspect would help. But I don't need to. If you think it'd be helpful, then you should pursue that. I wonder if there are other methods to bring something like this.

.... how exactly did you lose your powers? Is your grace fully gone? It might be better to try and fix the root of the issue. My wings cannot be restored as far as I know but you might be different.

[depressant]

Glad it worked out for you. I've still gotta find a contract partner.

Nah, it's not that she's oblivious. She thinks we're alike, and the way I talk about myself I can see where she gets the idea.

I don't know. There might be. McCoy told me the medical science they have here isn't up to snuff, but if tea can do something like this, there must be more to it, right? Maybe it won't help. But it'd give me some control. And if I don't focus on doing something, I

Anael, I don't think I can go down that road.

[angeloffriyay]

You only newly arrived, so you have time. And ... I do think you are better at making connections than I am.

So she insults herself by insulting you? That makes it better how?

There is other magic users as far as I know so someone might know something.

Which road?

[depressant]

Mm, maybe. I think you're nicer.

She was relating to me.

I'll have to keep asking around.

Trying to get my grace back. If it doesn't work, I... I don't know. My grace faded when all the angels went back to Heaven. I think it would've run out anyway, eventually, but that— I don't know exactly what happened. It was a bad time, though.

[angeloffriyay]

You are more open. I retreat a lot because I am cowardly.

Well, if you aren't insulted I shouldn't be on your behalf either.

Yes, I'm afraid so. I would ask on your behalf but I am not even sure where to begin.

I'm sorry. I ... I suppose that would be disheartening to try and find that it cannot be restored but. What if you took some of mine? To see if it stirred anything in you. It might just be dormant.

[depressant]

You're not.

It's okay. I don't mind asking around.

I appreciate the offer, but I don't know if that'd be a good idea. Taking another angel's grace was always frowned upon, wasn't it? Could have consequences.

[angeloffriyay]

Oh believe me. I always have been. The bravest thing I have ever done was desert heaven and that was me running away.

I wish you luck.

Well ... I have never taken another's grace but I have given it and I am alright. It restored itself, the way it usually does. I am not sure if it has happened for him yet because I can never fully recall how much our times or origin differ but the other Castiel has taken another angel's grace before.

[depressant]

Well, then we can be cowards together. It's not like I'm honest because I'm brave.

Thanks.

He did? What happened?

[angeloffriyay]

I think there is bravery in being willing to die for a cause or for someone. And to fight for the same things. But then again I have never had something that would compare.

It'd be better for you to ask him about the details. He was known for it for a while ... he did what he had to to survive in my opinion. Others didn't agree.

But then again maybe I am not the best person to ask about these matters. I too am notorious in a way. I did give my grace to survive, after all. I doubt I wouldn't have taken it as well if it had been necessary.

[depressant]

All that's gone now, anyway. He died. I died. It's over.

I know some of it, but it doesn't surprise me that the other angels hated him. They hated me. Maybe they would've let me back in if I'd given up on the Earth and repented, but I'll never know.

Well, you've got guts to tangle with Lucifer. I saw him a few times, and I felt like a mouse in the jaws of a lion. He could've bitten down at any time. I still don't know why he didn't.

[angeloffriyay]

Your personality and what's at your core remain, however. And now you are here.

They are a judgmental sort, so it's unsurprising, true. Had you put heaven first, then they might have. My own return wasn't as appreciated as I'd have hoped but that too is understandable. One doesn't simply waltz in there with the Morningstar in tow, I suppose.

Desperation sometimes drives one to extremes, I suppose. Both his and mine. He nearly killed me, too, but it was ... strange. He seemed almost sad.

[depressant]

Yeah. Now I'm here.

No, no you don't. Is that what you did? You brought him back upstairs? Was there, uh, a reason why?

Huh.

Well, I don't think he was sad when he broke Dean's neck.

[angeloffriyay]

You think I would have done that had there not been any reason?

No. I am sure he wasn't. But his experiences in your world and mine also must have been quite different. I don't know. I probably saw something I wanted since I wanted to matter somehow. [ Not to him in particular. Just to someone. Anyone. It's why she came running when Castiel called. ]

[depressant]

It's a rhetorical question, Anael. I know you must have had a reason.

Sorry, I guess just find it pretty difficult to give a shit about his feelings. But we can't really help who we get attached to. My life might've been pretty different if we could.

[angeloffriyay]

The reason was that heaven was in desperate need of angels and ... when I met Lucifer he was weak, without any access to his grace at all. He had just drained another angel nearby, but it wasn't enough. We struck a deal: my grace, given willingly with enough time in between for it to restore itself, in exchange for his help with the angel population. He made me believe that he was able to create regular angels, but of course, he had lied.

I wouldn't call myself attached. Stupid and mislead seems more like it.

[depressant]

Well, if there's anyone who could dupe another angel, it's Lucifer. There were plenty in the ranks that thought he was in the right, even if they didn't have the balls to follow him, though I suppose most are probably dead by now.

However you wanna put it.

[angeloffriyay]

I didn't think he was right. I didn't follow him. Though I am sure that Duma was sure I did. I just hoped desperately that he would save heaven. I hadn't even been there for years but that doesn't mean I want it gone.

They are completely different things, are they not? You think I was attached?

[depressant]

I didn't want it gone, either.

I don't know. Actually, Anael, I don't think I wanna talk about Lucifer anymore. What have you been up to here? In the city? I was gone for a whole month. Fill me in. What's been going on?

[angeloffriyay]

Maybe it's just something we all share. That feeling.

Me? Up to? Not much, to be frank. I came back here almost 4 months ago and basically went back to how I had been before. I have my job at Creature Comforts and I help out at the Clinic. The only thing of note to really happen is my contract.

I'm sorry to disappoint you but my life isn't very interesting.

[depressant]

I wasn't expecting entertainment. I'm just curious. Even when I was here before, I didn't get out much. I was trying to adjust, and then we all had those nightmares.

And after that, the rain started.

[ he's been too swamped, both literally and figuratively, to really stick his head out. ]

[angeloffriyay]

The rain was terrible. Makes me very grateful to no longer be living in the Down, at the very least.

But surely you have been talking to people. Using the network like this?

Are there any people you are interested in, Castiel?